For the last week I have been thinking of nothing but going to Europe. In this time I have started looking at some of the places I will go on Google Maps. The ridiculous resolution of reality is impeccable.
Go there and instead of putting in the address of the Halloween party you are going to put in the name of some distant and strange city you have always dreamed of exploring. You can see houses, cars, people. You can see where streams bend into woods and children build forts out of day dreams and summer haze. You can be anywhere on earth now just by wishing its name into google.
I want to build installations that do this from a first person (as opposed to birds eye) perspective. I want to allow everyone the ability to go anywhere instantly and without cost. To visit the day dreams of our youth in order to more fully explore the world in which we live.
So I have been considering what I will be bringing along for my month long walkabout in Europe. I have to move between 5 or so cities over the four weeks I am there and have no idea what I should bring along. I want to be as lightly packed as I can get away with but still have everything I need.
What the hell does one bring for a month? Besides clothes and a DV camera there are dozens of things I could use, but I want to be light so bringing to much would be silly. (It doesn’t help that the temperature in Copenhagen will be so much colder than the temperature in Lisoba)
Anyone out there packed for a month of travel that was more adult oriented? (When I was young I traveled constantly across the US with just a backpack – but I never had to look nice or do anything beyond my actual wandering) Suggestions?
When we think of who we are as individuals we almost never consider the decisions we make everyday about how we present who we are to the world around us. How often does one consider their values, beliefs and morals in the context of our daily lives? We get through and do what we do by simply moving through our days according to our reactions from our environment. But when was the last time you consider who you are, what you do everyday and who other people think you are as a person in their environment?
Soon I will leave Chicago and embark on a month long tour of Europe. As soon as I get off the plane I will be deciding how I present myself to the world. I could potentially reinvent myself on the spot for each city I am in, releasing only the personal information about who I am and acting like I am a specific kind of person to each group of people I meet. Never being the same person to each city I visit and group of people I interact with.
The regularity of the average persons day creates a reinforcement of our sense of “I” conditioning our pattern of behavior to a single set of individual traits. Unfortunately this is not really how people work. Our mood (based on complex chemical processes) changes drastically with each new environment we encounter and the only thing that dictates our specific sense of self identity is routine.
Hopefully the next month will allow me to re invest my thinking of who I am in order to allow me to explore what makes my own sense of identity whole.
Sometimes it is the little things that hurt the most. The tiny infractions into our lives that take their toll on us in minute detail. They wear at us constantly until one tiny thing finally breaks us and we remain broken.
Why is it that the shape of our lives is so confused and disorganized? Or maybe that?s just my life? Somehow I doubt it.
Last night I was privileged to film the Magik Markers perform in Chicago at Schubas. Absolutely incredible in every way. I can?t believe how good it actually was. Spires that in the Sunset Rise opened and I filmed them as well. a night I will always remember (not just because I have it on tape from 5 cameras).
As much as I plan I never know where I am going. Where ever I go I want to be someplace else. I am not running away so much as wandering toward. But toward what?